Toujours Paris
Feb 28, 2010 |
Post a Comment And so our month of Paris ends. Take a seat, mes amis, tip your head to the breeze, sip your café au lait & wait for the sun to shine.

amuse-bouche | tagged
Paris | The joy of writing.
The power of preserving.
Revenge of a mortal hand.
—Wisława Szymborska,
"The Joy of Writing"
Words are all we have.
— Samuel Beckett
Feb 28, 2010 |
Post a Comment And so our month of Paris ends. Take a seat, mes amis, tip your head to the breeze, sip your café au lait & wait for the sun to shine.

Feb 27, 2010 |
Post a Comment 
I'm not a big wearer of jewelry, though I can feel the winds of change rustling through my aging ways. Accessorize! all the fashion mags say. It's the key to blah blah blah. Eternal life? Rheumatoid arthritis? Who knows. Maybe it's an occupational hazard, or an allergy to fussiness, handed down from my mother—preppy girls are not known for anything but pearls (and me hate pearls). I like bare necks, okay? As a rule. But I saw this cheap leather thing (cheap? 6 €) on the rue des Abbesses last Saturday morning and stopped to look, consider, walked on, stopped to think, walked back, and said, Mais oui, lay it on me. Then the shopkeeper and I spent five minutes trying to tie it tight, with him saying, No, place your finger here to hold it, in French, and me smiling dumbly. It reminds me of a bracelet a friend of my parents brought me from Africa once, made of elephant hair, which I never removed and then one day it cracked right off my wrist. I guess I'll do the same with this.
Mostly I like that it says Paris to no one but me.
Feb 24, 2010 |
5 Comments There's this line in Bram Stoker's Dracula that Gary Oldman kind of slurps at Winona Ryder, something like, I've crossed oceans of time to find you, and he turns "oceans" into a six-syllable word with that particular Gary Oldman-type yearning. It's meant to be romantic and significant in the context of the living dead and I'll agree it's a little melty, but it's also silly, and silly too that it's what kept playing through my mind as I skipped out of the Théâtre du Châtelet after A Little Night Music last week.
Oceans of time.
I don't know: shameless dramatic overkill? And did I say skipped? I meant danced. Twirled. Waltzed. Sailed. Floated, dot dot dot. As did the very proper bouclé-clad French matron who sat beside me and cheered during the curtain call (it was a very long curtain call). I have a soft spot in my heart for those proper French matrons, and how they sit so straight and slim and tall, like there's a thread from the bottom to the top pulling up, up, up. They dazzle just by sitting still. I was afraid to sneeze next to her, like she might summon up the ghost of Coco at the merest twitch and I'd be out on my poor American tail.
Now where was I?
Twenty years is a long time to wait for a thing that on its face should be relatively simple, because A Little Night Music is performed all the time everywhere. Really, get yourself a copy of The Sondheim Review and look it up: everywhere. One of Sondheim's most accessible shows, they call it, although I never know what that's supposed to mean. They're all in English, for heaven's sake. They're all in language. (And here with the French subtitles, bien sûr.) But in the past twenty years I've seen exactly two productions that I would call top drawer, and one of them was in college and the other was in Baltimore. The Broadway revival, we won't talk about that here.
But this was perfect. No small part of the big picture was the theater itself, which had the feel of an opera house, a towering space with a wide-open proscenium stretched up past the heavens, strung with three gold velvet curtains that swept across the stage to transition the scene changes. Smooth, unobtrusive, très élégante. Here's a bedroom, sweep, look! now it's a dressing room, and all without a break, without a sound, a sofa suddenly appearing, a piano gone like that. Everything floated. And the whole thing—so massive! so majestic! so out of its time and somehow past its glory—the effect was to make the characters look their parts, to reduce them to what they are, wee and trifling, fools all, racing about madly in circles to find what's right there, staring them in the face, kicking them in the shins, shouting I AM ALL THAT AND A CUP OF TEA, into the void, the entire time. An amuse-bouche in which everything that matters is on the line.
(Note: this is not a review. I hope you've caught onto that by now.)
I debated all week about whether to write this up at all, because it feels too internal, too of a piece with the whole experience of being in Paris, something I'm still not sure I want to let into the open. But I'll say this:
Leslie Caron may be the best Madame Armfeldt I've seen, certainly the first to make me believe she was a courtesan worth her salt and years. This lady knows what grand used to be. Her gestures from that wheelchair were a little wavy, but she was a tart, winking little sprite who looked accustomed to sleeping in diamonds and pearls and intended to die that way. She was, what? The je ne sais quoi, in head-to-toe sparkle and lace.
Lambert Wilson was sad and rumpled and a Fredrik not overly assured of his prospects, who from my vantage point (Porte 01 Rang L Numero 13) even bore a slight resemblance to Len Cariou, which was lovely. Greta Scacchi was the right age and looked it, which was even lovelier. This is a woman whose choices have dwindled and whose chances are fading and knows it. The knowledge of that is in every step she takes, the way she tries to primp herself up the minute he starts singing about how she needs to meet his wife. Meet his wife! Her Desirée looked cheap and shabby (fine costume choices, colors just this side of garish)—and undeniably gorgeous, in a way that was both human and believable, a beautiful woman whose beauty is slipping into something else, something that used to be. And I know it's "smiles of a summer night" and all that jazz, but in their hands this was an autumn story. Both of them dying on the vine, everything passing by. (During "The Miller's Son," they left her bed on the stage—see "very large stage," above—and she stood beside it, clutching his jacket, while this ripe young thing crowed on and on out on the grass about all the life she still has the time to lead, and there was a ruefulness and sort of cruelty to it that even "Send in the Clowns" couldn't touch.)
Rebecca Bottone as Anne was the other standout, in a performance that could not be bettered and a role I've never liked. Thin as a whisper, she played the part not as a dim bulb but simply naive, a very young girl who actually does love, in all the wrong ways, this man she married for all the wrong reasons. It's perfectly clear during "Now/Later/Soon" that she's tempted by him, attracted to him, considering it, and is both perplexed and genuinely distraught when he calls out another woman's name just as she's crawling into bed beside him. When she runs home crying after the theater, when she cries again during Charlotte's visit, it's because she senses something of value is at stake, not that she's losing a toy. Honestly, this character was the most unexpected and delightful surprise of the evening.
And the liebeslieders! They were fellow guests at a party at the beginning, who stumble into an empty room trailing cigar smoke, to drink, make a little whoopie, then decide to try the piano, have a song. Bringing with them the sense that the party is already long over (oh, it all had that Old World feel to it, tarnished and louche and weary). They were participants more than observers, not quite of the action but beside it, not talking to the audience so much as the characters. The women dressed in bronze, pewter, slate, one of them playing "the play within a play" as a Cockney flower girl, the other a French barmaid, an epic of screwball nonsense as they wait, patiently, for the sensational Countess Celimène de Francen de la Tour de Casa to appear. Light before dark, bitter on top of sweet.
What else can I tell you? The direction was seamless, the set perfectly suited. The orchestra...the orchestra...the orchestra... Rising and rising, the violins, the cellos, flutes, oboes, clarinets, bassoons, trumpets, harps, tubas, trombones, la la la. And into the night, into the rain, into Paris—across oceans and time—I danced.
Feb 24, 2010 |
14 Comments My first trip to Paris? Accommodations mattered. Were critical, in fact. I had no desire to spend a week in a hotel—although I love hotels—because hotel rooms feel stale after a while (no matter how grand) and I'm not the sort of girl who would ever say, Oh, I won't be spending any time in my room anyway. I like rooms! Also, I like naps. I have only two feet and two eyes and I find sightseeing, as an hours-long hobby that requires my active attention and participation, fundamentally exhausting. Ditto chit-chatting daily with concierges, bellhops, and maids, and doubly so in a foreign city where I do not speak (or really understand) the language. I wanted freedom of movement and a modicum of space in which to unwind and absorb, to occasionally buy my own food and cook my own meals, and to go or stay at my leisure on a common city street.
(Is there a common city street in Paris?)
(These paragraph breaks are arbitrary, by the way. I am in the mood for e x p a n s i v e t h i n k i n g .)
So when I read about the short-term rental apartments at Haven in Paris on the blog A CUP OF JO last September I signed up immediately, after performing the requisite checks and reading copious online reviews. (Repeat: I'm a planner, and I don't cut corners when I travel alone. Which explains my attachment to Town Car International, as well.)
I'M SPENDING A WEEK IN AN APARTMENT IN PARIS! I sang to myself daily for six months. Honest, I did. And now that I've done it (sigh! it's done), I sing to myself, I LIVED FOR A WEEK IN AN APARTMENT IN PARIS! Because this wasn't visiting, this was living. I had an elevator and a huge open space on the seventh floor flooded with natural light and a full bath and shower and a queen-sized bed and a real kitchen and table and a French press for coffee and a stove to scramble eggs on and a corkscrew and wine glasses and a view of Sacré Coeur and all of Montmartre—all of Paris—right there at my feet. And I loved it. I loved everything about it.
And when I go back next year, I'm staying here.
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Here's what HiP's standard services include, which lived up to expectations & then some:
Friends! What can I tell you? Go! Do! LIVE!

+ more photos (& larger) @ flickr
(& note: that's my laptop above, which I needed for photos, but there was a MacBook next to the TV, loaded up with all the stuff you need)
Feb 24, 2010 |
3 Comments Those things I could not have lived without...
ecojot spiral-bound journal & Field Notes (also, moo stickers)

Boden cardigan & Longchamp wallet

Digital memory card case (holds 8 SDHC cards, all of which I needed), iPhone (esp. maps & compass, which saved my lily-white neck more than once in both Paris and London; and TweetDeck), iPod shuffle (old-school edition), headphones, convertor

The Paris Mapguide, used in conjunction with Lonely Planet: Paris Encounter (both light & portable & chock full of info, and now full of notes)


Photos of these two lovely ladies clipped in the back of my journal, reminding me that I went because some people never will—and that I was never really alone.

My camera? Nikon D90. My daily bag? Something by Coach: cross-body, black, simple, functional, packable, waterproof, full of zippered pockets. Et voila & success!
Feb 23, 2010 |
5 Comments I'm not ready to be home yet, to face the honking horns and general malaise that is this city in the stranglehold of late February. That language barrier, which I took as such an inconvenience last week, I realized today on the subway it was actually a buffer; there's so much I would prefer not to overhear, all of it said so LOUDLY and with so much UNNECESSARY EMPHASIS.
However, Paris: I suppose this is another way to do it...
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Don’t talk to me of love. I’ve had an earful
And I get tearful when I’ve downed a drink or two.
I’m one of your talking wounded.
I’m a hostage. I’m maroonded.
But I’m in Paris with you.
Yes I’m angry at the way I’ve been bamboozled
And resentful at the mess I’ve been through.
I admit I’m on the rebound
And I don’t care where are we bound.
I’m in Paris with you.
Do you mind if we do not go to the Louvre
If we say sod off to sodding Notre Dame,
If we skip the Champs Elysées
And remain here in this sleazy
Old hotel room
Doing this and that
To what and whom
Learning who you are,
Learning what I am.
Don’t talk to me of love. Let’s talk of Paris,
The little bit of Paris in our view.
There’s that crack across the ceiling
And the hotel walls are peeling
And I’m in Paris with you.
Don’t talk to me of love. Let’s talk of Paris.
I’m in Paris with the slightest thing you do.
I’m in Paris with your eyes, your mouth,
I’m in Paris with… all points south.
Am I embarrassing you?
I’m in Paris with you.
— James Fenton
Feb 23, 2010 |
Post a Comment I realized while I was there that James Salter formed a lot of my notions of Paris when I read his memoir years ago. He describes it in tones possessive and personal, a place that's all burnished glow streaked with cigarette smoke, grand because it's faded down in that way that makes everyone & thing sad and gorgeous:
I loved you very much. I might say that of Paris; my memories are heaped there. Somehow I was constantly returning—the train gliding through the endless suburbs or in blue air the airplane banking as, face close to the window, I looked down. Far below the fabled city unifies itself, which it will not do when you are within it. The tangled, irregular streets create a kind of anatomy. A city which since Gothic times, as the poet says, has been ever increasing in deformity, and withal retaining more perfection than any other of its class.
— James Salter, Burning the Days
Feb 21, 2010 |
4 Comments Merci, Paris! Thank you for waiting.

Feb 20, 2010 |
6 Comments I'll bet you can't wait for me to go home already, but it took me 40 years to get here and I'm holding on to this as tight as I can.
This is the view as I wait for the elevator outside my apartment, for heaven's sake! Can you imagine such a thing? It's like finding out you have a second pair of eyes.

And this is the view from my front doorstep: color, color, color, GOD.

And this, once again, is the view from the top of the hill.


I suppose it's possible for a person to get tired of looking at Paris at sunset, but I don't believe I will ever be that person.

I was offered an exclusive view of the Eiffel Tower by two different French gentlemen while I sat on the steps of the Sacré Coeur by myself. But I don't believe I'll ever be that person, either.

I love the steps of Montmartre, pain in the ass (literally) as they are. I love the idea of having to work at getting somewhere utterly worthwhile.


Maggie is another American on her own in Paris for a short spell, who(m) I met via the HiP Paris blog. We had dinner tonight at Chéri Bibi and, well, she was fabulous, the restaurant was fabulous, and it was a fabulous way to say au revoir on the very last night of my very first trip to Paris.

P.S. I love a pretty little plate.

P.S.2. And I love it even better when it's decorated as it should be, with a country paté and crusty bread and cornichons.

Vous voyez? C'est parfait!
Feb 20, 2010 |
4 Comments This week was everything I hoped it would be, and so much I never expected. It's going to take some time to process it all: everything I saw and did, what I learned about my own limits and tolerance and loneliness and patience and perseverance. But what a lovely way to learn.
One of the things I learned was the quasi-soulful give and take of the French press.

And here, after a week: do I look any Frencher?

Now I can fit la Tour Eiffel in my pocket!

This is Sacré Coeur from the front yard.

And here are the steps leading up...HA HA HAHAHAHAHA! This is also where one of those dudes tried to tie a bracelet around my wrist, and I gave him the what-for.

The Paris Vélib' for the taking.

the carrousel du Sacré Coeur

What is going on with this ride when even the horses look terrified?

outside the Métro Abbesses

pressing on the streets of Montmartre


the rue Yvonne le Tac in Montmartre

un marché aux fruits
